Everyone is down and I understand that. It seems like a lot of people want to get rid of their troubles as a means to relieve stress. I am the person everyone talks to to feel “happier” or “correct” or “sane”. I keep people alive and out of depression. This results to me accumulating everyone’s stress. I don’t vent it all out or lash out, I keep it to myself so no one else has to suffer, but myself as shown here in this diary.

What this means is, I’m waiting for that person where we can share troubles back and forth until both of us move on past, together. As of now, I’ll remain altruistic and let the thought that “others” are being saved. The only thing that hurts is that they talk trash about me anyway. 

So maybe

I’m not doing the right thing.

So as I post this here with the tags so other people can find it,

I urge you,

love the ones you call your friends.

You never know who could be suffering so isn’t it better to have everyone happy?

He’s my best friend. 

I’m not saying I’m all-knowing, but I choose not to tell you stuff because this helps you in its own way, hate me all you want, you’ll love yourself soon enough.

Sorry everyone if I remembered incorrectly, my memories are fading a lot quicker than I thought.

I think about what a failure I’m going to be if I keep acting this way. 

I think about how I’m going to find love with the way I treat others. 

I think about events that’ll occur without any prevention and how I’ll react and cope with it.

I think about all the mistakes I have done up until now and if i can make the correct decisions.

I think about all those out there who have much bigger problems out there dealing with it better than me with trivial problems.

I think about how thankful I should be of everything that I do have and all the people I care for and who care for me.

I think about the people that make my life unbearable, but I also think about the people that make my life worth living to its fullest.

I feel like I should do my best and keep my head held up high and hopefully all these thought I have now will not be for naught and lead me in the right direction to make a difference. 

How can I be optimistic? 
Remember the good old times and happy memories! but it’s human nature to permanently learn our mistakes. 

What can I do?

My dreams are getting more and more real so I start learning from my dreams and come up with faulty facts. D: